I got my heart broken again on Tuesday night. How did it end? Simple.

You're on a date too? No I'm taken already. I don't need to date.

Why didn't you tell me? Because it's old and new. And I got to know you when it was still old and not new yet. 

Okay, I won't talk to you already. Bye! Why?

Cause somebody is taken already! So that is why you don't want to talk to me? 

Yup! What does the fact that I'm taken change?

Doesn't change anything. But it isn't nice for me to talk to you. 

So yeah. Why? Oh I see.. You feel like you're wasting your time talking to me cause I'm not single? Fair enough. Lol

No. Not like that. But if you think so then okay! What should I think? I am open to thinking anything. You need to suggest what should I think.

Hahaha it's okay. It doesn't matter. I'm sad I'm left with no idea why you don't want to talk to me but okay, that is life.

:) ?

Don't be sad okay! Remember three little birds and you'll be alright :)

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I woke up with such a heavy heart. My eyelids..... My colleagues knew that I cried the whole night but they never knew why. I had to create reasons beyond my imagination. And they will never know why. It breaks my heart thinking that you didn't make it a point to tell me that you were in a relationship. It breaks my heart when it didn't matter how i felt. When you didn't talk to me for a week, last week, I was very happy but sad at the same time. And when you asked if i was still alive on Monday.. i felt so alive once again. But a day later, I got stabbed straight through my heart. I wasn't in love. I was just heartbroken.

You were dating someone when you got to know me? And you told me you weren't seeing anyone and the last girlfriend you had was 2 years ago? Was that why you used the passing of a relative as an excuse not to talk to me? Was that why you said you didn't want to hurt me because I was a nice person? Was that the reason why you told me you'll always be a mystery?

So many questions, just so many questions. But I don't think the answers matter now because you had a reason. And that reason was to be kept away from me. 

What did mother theresa said? Be kind anyway. Even though it breaks my heart to stop talking to you, I know that you'll forget about it hours later because I don't matter. The person you're seeing, would ultimately be the very person you will stick to until the very end. 

As for me, I was made a loser, once again. Oh dear god.

Waterfalls - TLC

I absolutely love these movies. I've only watched Before Sunrise(1994) and Before Sunset(2004). I can't find Before Midnight. The movie came out in May 2013 but I didn't want to watch it yet before the first two movies.
I was telling someone what it was about. (Let me copy and paste our conversations so I don't have to make an additional effort just talking about it).

It's about a guy and a girl who met on a euro train. The thing amazing about the 90 minute movie was that it portrayed the whole scene in one day / night in Vienna. Well they probably shot the movie over a long period of time. They just met randomly, had a million and one things to talk about and they literally just spent a good amount of time hanging out. Just one night. They didn't exchange numbers, contacts, whatsoever but they said they would be at that station, 6 months from that night.

I had to know what happened next, so i watched Before Sunset (2004). Well, the girl didn't show up because her grandma died. The guy showed up, heartbroken. But then, 9 years later, he published a book about the girl he met. He went on a book tour and ended up in Paris. That girl was french. She read about the book, sounded familiar and then she met him at the book store. They shot the movie, again, in one day when he was in Paris. They spent time together, but this time, he was married. So no kissing and all this time. What a bummer! But they kind of spoke of the heartbreak that they felt when she didn't show up and how their love life went down after that amazing night they had in Vienna.

It's a beautiful show. I want my love life to be like that too! Well, not the part where they were separated for almost a decade. But I want to meet someone who shares the same sentiments as I do. I want someone who is able to hold a conversation and have so many things to talk about even though it has been talked about. It's always so fun to be able to keep talking and then enjoying a silent moment together. Ah, how lovely.