Swing - Decker

Each time I sit in to listen to the submissions given by the two counsels or even the parties themselves, I imagine myself being in their shoes. I have not been in a relationship and I asked one of my colleagues, "Do you see me being someone's girlfriend / wife?" Her answer? No. I can't either. But she said that she can actually vision me having a kid. Well that's because I love kids. No, no shotguns allowed and my kid WILL have a father. Ha ha.

I may have made some silly mistakes in my life but that was because I was oblivious and I was naive. To be in the position whereby spouses have an affair with an innocent girl makes me wonder how it feels like to be in the shoes of the other half. When you make the vow, "I promise to be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health. I will love you and honor you all the days of my life." What do these vows mean to you? This applies to both the man and the wife and in case if you're curious no, we didn't do it. Or maybe. Or...

I've been thinking a lot about the kind of man that I want to be with but really, no matter how many criteria that I set, I have that wall of insecurities that I've built. I know that when I make that commitment to be with someone, I will give my utmost best but what if it's not enough? What if it's never going to be enough but really, what is enough? Will we keep working towards impressing one another or will it just fade away? Cause like many other couples out there, I sure do want the impression to last till eternity.