I got my heart broken again on Tuesday night. How did it end? Simple.

You're on a date too? No I'm taken already. I don't need to date.

Why didn't you tell me? Because it's old and new. And I got to know you when it was still old and not new yet. 

Okay, I won't talk to you already. Bye! Why?

Cause somebody is taken already! So that is why you don't want to talk to me? 

Yup! What does the fact that I'm taken change?

Doesn't change anything. But it isn't nice for me to talk to you. 

So yeah. Why? Oh I see.. You feel like you're wasting your time talking to me cause I'm not single? Fair enough. Lol

No. Not like that. But if you think so then okay! What should I think? I am open to thinking anything. You need to suggest what should I think.

Hahaha it's okay. It doesn't matter. I'm sad I'm left with no idea why you don't want to talk to me but okay, that is life.

:) ?

Don't be sad okay! Remember three little birds and you'll be alright :)

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I woke up with such a heavy heart. My eyelids..... My colleagues knew that I cried the whole night but they never knew why. I had to create reasons beyond my imagination. And they will never know why. It breaks my heart thinking that you didn't make it a point to tell me that you were in a relationship. It breaks my heart when it didn't matter how i felt. When you didn't talk to me for a week, last week, I was very happy but sad at the same time. And when you asked if i was still alive on Monday.. i felt so alive once again. But a day later, I got stabbed straight through my heart. I wasn't in love. I was just heartbroken.

You were dating someone when you got to know me? And you told me you weren't seeing anyone and the last girlfriend you had was 2 years ago? Was that why you used the passing of a relative as an excuse not to talk to me? Was that why you said you didn't want to hurt me because I was a nice person? Was that the reason why you told me you'll always be a mystery?

So many questions, just so many questions. But I don't think the answers matter now because you had a reason. And that reason was to be kept away from me. 

What did mother theresa said? Be kind anyway. Even though it breaks my heart to stop talking to you, I know that you'll forget about it hours later because I don't matter. The person you're seeing, would ultimately be the very person you will stick to until the very end. 

As for me, I was made a loser, once again. Oh dear god.